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Why? This was the eternal question of my childhood. If I did not get an acceptable response or answer I went and found one. I never really read the Bernstein bears, I preferred cutaway books and picture encyclopedias, and they gave the answers I desired, in a glyphic form I could comprehend. This need to know has followed me through my life.

This insatiable need to know I had eventually carried over into school, at least once lab classes started. The classroom came alive to me. I got to Learn how to test my environment.  I then grew love Popular Science. I read the magazine just to see what scientists are doing. There is a do-it-yourself section that I immediately flip to. I proceed to try the experiments or projects they suggest, thinking about how to change the circuitry or design to benefit me. I then began to do science, and technology, on my own.

Sometimes I have to know something is true or wont work. If you re-cork a wine bottle and heat it the top does not shoot off, the bottle will shatter. If you take apart a microwave and hook up the magnetron you will have built a primitive microwave cannon not an ionization ray. If you mix Styrofoam with gasoline it will become dangerously flammable goo, not a fun one. Pick-up lines only work if you are in a bar, not on a run. I discovered these truths on my own! I then realized the danger involved in my quest for knowledge was too high.

I tried things methodically later in life and not just on a whim. This never created a need for me to write, though. I could figure things out as I went along and didn’t care to share any of my discoveries, many of which were proved wrong mathematically before I tried them. I found self fulfillment in merely knowing I proved something to myself. Results meant nothing to me. Therefore writing them down was out of the question.

As I got into higher and more complex levels of math and science, things were more exciting, ad frustrating. I began to realize there were problems I could not solve in this physical realm, or using systems such as math and science. I began to think about life. I would ask why I was here. The world around me didn’t need testing until I found out why it was there. I read about theories of the origins of life first. Then I consulted my faith. Once I realized there was a God morals, ethics and theology consumed me. I looked around for more and deeper truth. I came to the conclusion wise men speak in code to deter some from even reading their wisdom. This is why I like to read quotations. I am on a quest to become wiser. Right now I have come to a point where I realize that the wisest of men have no need for Plank’s constant, derivations, or biology.

I began looking into the idea of wisdom during high school. I saw many “smart” people acting foolishly, and some dull people seeming very wise. This made me ponder and explore. I bought Bartlett’s quotations just to have because there were so many great ideas summed up into simple, concise quotations. As I read I found that many people who are wise speak the same truths, just in a different code for their time and society. To me, almost everything has a system and I thought I discovered one to become wise.

After weeks of trying to come up with my own quotes and trying in futility to force myself to be wise it hit me. Just be. That’s all it takes to be wise. Don’t interact too much in a situation and you can see many more facets. Sitting in a cafeteria or classroom I would always reach out and meet new people, be a clown and get a laugh or talk. now you can find me sitting alone at lunch, by preference. I like windows or eating outside. You have to eat, and if you are doing that right you can’t talk. This creates a prime time for your mind to wander, so I let it. This is how I noticed two trees can become one and that if I truly believe something, I can state it as fact. Observance was the first step to becoming a different, possible wiser, writer.

Wise men are fools who think before they speak.

love is a like a river-it has flow-some people like it-some people sit outside-some people can’t swim-some people abuse it-some people dam it up for themselves never giving back-others just go with the flow-others try to control how deep they go-yet we all need it.

We are like a forest, plant yourself near someone, you will grow close, if you are lucky you become one tree

If you truly believe in something, there is no need to say “I believe”, it becomes truth.

People are like houses, to become great they have to be re-invented, rebuilt, the old blueprints forgotten, and the old foundation destroyed.

These are some of my analogies that may not be completely original, but are some of my first musings. They may be influenced by what I have read or seen in culture. This is how I like to think and write for myself. Sometimes the best ideas come from dreams. This is the time you can walk through your thoughts.

I dream, often. Every night, I see images, a real life story, play out before me. Sometimes I believe it might be possible that when we “sleep” we are truly awake, just not here. Dreaming is that time in between the shift when we reassemble our persona in another reality. This is beside the point, but a fun idea. I like to transfer some of the better parts of my dreams to my computer in a coherent and edited story. One is about a young man in a post apocalyptic world, I never finished part two, or even know how this story will end. Dreaming I feel is important to society. It may be something you ate, or maybe you should listen to it. Some of the world’s greatest stories were dreams far before becoming reality on the page. Imagine your craziest dream, that dream could become the next Alice in wonderland.

Dreams, wise men and technology all have influenced the writer i am becoming today. I feel to be a great writer you must always grow. If a plant stops growing, we say its dead, what if a man stops thinking. I prefer my dreams to my reality at the moment. Dreaming is better than being here. I resolve to one day be a wise man, I know it will be a journey that takes a lifetime, but it is my goal. My present self is a scientist in review. I am always exploring and figuring out new ways to decipher what I see and feel. Life has never hindered a person’s ability to write. That is why I plan to discover as many aspects of writing and life as I can.